“A Positive No”

I stare blankly on a page

Trying to form words not out of rage

From my heart which spoke out again

Reminding me such feeling I can’t explain

So I tried to practice metacognition

To know what’s in you that keeps me in motion

Memories of me and you started to flash

Specifically to the moment which giggles both of us

I did ask you what neckties can do

You puzzled your face looking for a clue

Trying to fit everything, hardly you do

Luckily you didn’t know it until I showed it to you

Should I say favour was on my side?

Or it’s just you want to let go as well what you felt inside?

As romantic can lovers do to whom they loved

I did it without you seeing it bad

I smiled with that thought and realized

Time flew fast but we had seized it to last

A sweet memory we had built sometime

A throw back of our days so fine

I sighed and slouch on my chair

It took a while for me to see it clearer

Was I like a falling leaf on your ground?

Or was it just a friendly affection I didn’t understand?

You have summoned me in words

That it’s time to bring it to our next life’ episode

I tried to digest everything and absorb

But I’m afraid I couldn’t do what it should

I have to say “forgive me, I can’t grant

what you’ve been longing inside your heart”

It’s not because I don’t feel the way you do

It’s just I’m afraid we’ll just earned blue

There are things we must hold dear

And focus on as we continue our trail

It may be hard but I know we can

It’s the best we can do while were around

Tell me I’m coward enough to take such risk

But I can’t sacrifice what I think is best

I’d rather take such pain knowing I can still be with you

Than reminisce excruciating moments and losing someone like you.

I took a deep breath and wipe such tears

Rushing running down on such a lovely face

There are few open doors we have to consider

Trust me, it will be for the better.

Maybe it was by chance our roads met

But I believe it’s a choice we won’t regret

To settle in each others’ heart until our time runs out

And make the best of it entwined with an eros love

I infer not all “yes” in life brings happiness

Nor all “wait” could train one’s patience

Meanwhile “no” doesn’t always compliments negative

Because like now, it holds on to what we believed.

Teardrops

Like the rain falling from the sky

The pain you feeling just won't die

Because every time you close your eye

It was her who flashes out so you cry

How then can you feel good?

When you know, that person is the antidote

Of the loneliness that embraces you

How could that person made you feel blue?

This teary eye and weary heart

Are proof of once was master of art

A kind of an output where something was torn

Afraid to be sold, afraid of duplication.

Melted Feeling

It's hard when you've found out at times

You're already not the reason for her smiles

Not even the apple of her eyes

Nor the definition of what's nice

No matter how hard you try to connect the tie

It just loose up on it's own, I sigh

'Coz similarly it's how our connection had gone

With a blink, all was turned without bond?

How can I move forward?

When it's you who keeps me going?

Please tell me, what can I do?

To make me get over from you?

Blame me for feeling this way

But you can't slap this words I say

It was just I want you to be happy

Even though it will make my heart gloomy

They say all of these shall come to pass

I just have to let go of the memory of "us"

I hope your happy now with your chosen person

And give the love I gave you without pretension.

Setting Aside

I saw you in a crowded room

In a way you should've not ever known

A glimpse of you tickles me

Seeing you're around I'm in glee

Your fine face like an angel

Your charming appearance I can tell

Makes me fell into a trap of an illusion

I'm afraid it's a one-sided affection

Every time you speak or smiled

I can't help it, I'm petrified

About what you say, I can't hide

This feeling just won't subside

I thought it was only me

But I found out my friend feels the same way

I don't want to share an attention

If it would make things hard from now on

I guess I'm dropping this selfish emotion

And just admire you, be an inspiration

But I will not let my heart caught upon you again

Because I don't want to lose my very best friend.

Distant Stars

Starring at you from a far

Is like seeing a shinning star

You glow unlike no other can do

Revealing a minute detail of you

Though I may be a wanderer

Looking for a purpose somewhere

No regret I had,

Meeting you, I am glad

A friend you are to me

Not a question I'm at glee

Because you don't just say

But act out the right, right away

So what more can I demand?

You're given without command

I'll stay to be your nearest star

Though now, apart we are.

Until when?

Live life for once and sustain;

the waves of troubles in this challenging game.

A moment to wisely decide;

which and what to fight.

Was it all about you? or me?

Whose pathways are crooked

 I should say

But when will you stand proudly

to proclaim the gifts you have uniquely?

Will you just bury it on the ground?

Leave your soil uncultivated down?

Time may slips away, don't frown

So get up and be a blessing to everyone.

Version 2.0 times 10 to the power of 1

What life has to offer me when I grow old?

I just turned 20! Dalawang dekada narin akong nabubuhay, nangangarap, umamaasa, nagmamahal.. charot! hahaha.. I was happy God extended my year. I have something to accomplish yet. He's not yet done with me. Thank you Lord! Amen!

How did my birthday turned out to be happy?

My morning starts to shine with.... a greeting from my best friend! (how sweet!) Bakit? kasi.. magkatabi kaming natulog.. hahah.. effort much to disturb me from my sweet dreams. I was happy she was around during that day despite of her class by morning. An hour after I guess, my mother woke me up and greeted me with my father over the phone. CHECK! haha checklist lang? I have read some heartily made letter from my neices and it actually touches my heart. (the left side was from bbrose and the other from mackie)

       

and ofcouse a kulet neice... gipukaw jud ko ani niya... With bbnestle on my bed

Me @ 20

 

                 

My heart speaks Gratitude

          I actually planned not to prepare for a celebration during this birthday but my mother insisted as a thanksgiving for a year extension. I have appreciated my mother and fathers effort to make my day special and I thanked them a lot. Though everyday I can feel and see they cared but it's just that when it's your birthday has a special effect on you. Well true for me. Hehe.. But it's not a big deal to all aspects of my life.

         Aside from these gifts, I highly appreciated the greeting form my friends. When they remember you, that  means you have something shared to them which make them do such. I want to post something I have received from a friend who's effort I highly appreciated.

        As I grew older by age (not by face.. haha), I begin to appreciate material gifts does not count that much. Maybe because, I'm a type of a person who count efforts neither big or small especially if it is heartily given. I thanked God I grew to develop this kind of behavior. I we everything to Him. This stage of my life may seem to cater me much more challenges than before. I may be crushed, disappointed, stressed and discouraged. But, I will strive hard to stand up, until I'm finish.

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When I'm with you #2

Centinial Park, Dalipuga Iligan City

For 34 years of being an Iliganon by residence.. This was her first time to visit such place!
This was actually taken just this summer 2013 ^_^
Anyway.. I'm her proud student-friend... She's my teacher-best friend.

Below are the her in many angles ^___________^

MAKING MEMORIES IN MY HEART #10 : GIFT OF FRIENDSHIP

       I asked myself… why on earth did we ever become friends? A frustrating question I’m trying to answer but my memory fails to remember such reason. Another question struck me: How long we will be friends? Well, I don’t really know. Perhaps, as long as you remembers me and vice versa. A second thought flashes in my mind. So if that’s the case, we will be friends until our memory were over? How sad human nature can be. Well… sadly but true. Now, if it is based on that logic, then, how can I improved my memory so that the very thought of you will last longer in my cerebellum? (Think! Think! Think!). Poof! It became coco crunch! :] With the fact that I am making this entry, is this not one of those ways? Haha… They say small things matter. I don’t know if this matters to you but it does matter to me.

        I have read a story and I don’t know if you already know this but still I want to share it with you. The story is found below.

THE SHIP OF FRIENDSHIP

A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea and only two of the men on it were able to swim to a small, desert like island.

The two survivors who have been a good friends, not knowing what else to do, agreed that they had no other recourse but to pray to God. However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful, they agreed to divide the territory between them and stay on opposite sides of the island.

The first thing they prayed for was food. The next morning, the first man saw a fruit-bearing tree on his side of the land, and he was able to eat its fruit. The other man’s parcel of land remained barren.

After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife. The next day, another ship was wrecked, and the only survivor was a woman who swam to his side of the land. On the other side of the island, there was nothing.

Soon the first man prayed for a house, clothes, more food. The next day, like magic, all of these were given to him. However, the second man still had nothing.

Finally, the first man prayed for a ship, so that he and his wife could leave the island. In the morning, he found a ship docked at his side of the island. The first man boarded the ship with his wife and decided to leave the second man on the island.

He considered the other man unworthy to receive God’s blessings, since none of his prayers had been answered.

As the ship was about to leave, the first man heard a voice from heaven booming, “Why are you leaving your companion on the island?”

“My blessings are mine alone, since I was the one who prayed for them,” the first man answered. “His prayers were all unanswered and so he does not deserve anything.”

“You are mistaken!” the voice rebuked him. “He had only one prayer, which I answered. If not for that, you would not have received any of my blessings.”

“Tell me,” the first man asked the voice, “What did he pray for that I should owe him anything?”

“He prayed that all your prayers be answered “

Adapted from: http://www.moralstories.org/the-ship-of-friendship/

         Did you liked it? Sometimes, all we know is that the blessings we have received were from our prayers alone. But, that’s the power of having others to pray for you as well. Yes, we may not know who sincerely prayed for us. It’s beyond our capacity. Only God knows. Despite of that, the feeling that you’re not narrow-minded assuring something is for your own sake but open for others’ prayer request enables you to be satisfied giving you a one-of-a-kind selflessness. Now, you may not see your dearest friends doing sweet things for you like being unable to see them and spend time with them like before but what if they’re making it all up through prayers? Whatever is bothering your heart, you’re just a prayer away to God. It made us do the basic of life where humbleness abounds.  So, value your friends and don’t let your emotions control over your mind. God gave you brain. Use it wisely, for good. Have faith and Trust in the Lord with all your heart. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths.

PHOTO MEMORIES

               

 

              Those were old photos of the past... I guess this was two years ago? Anyway, I just want to include this in my blog for you--- remembrance. We may not be with each other daily, every week, monthly or even years from now. But what matter most is that you stays in my heart and I hope so you do.  

                                          

                                                                    random photos of you, me and others hehe ^_^

at kung minsan.. paki alamera din ako.. soree.. wa ko nananghid manguha ani na pics.. ^_^

This was taken kanina...  a very recent photo of you.. kaya lang.. nakatalikod.. tsk2x

A Little Conversation (June 21, 2013)

Here we go… It’s your favor so I will include this.

 (haha, yah! You don’t know that to its extent ganito ang gagawin ko..)

You: bz?or sleeping?

Me: Wala. . I’m thinking something. .

You: Wat somethng?

Me: Something I don’t want you to know. . Hahaha. . Bitaw uie. . Nag encode ko kung unsa ang nasa akung huna huna karon panahuna. Mana nakug tulog ganiha buh. .

(I aint gonna tell you because I’m making this thingy… What for will be my preparation.. hahhaha… Soreee  I’m just hoping you don’t have any idea what am I doing.)

You: .Wt is dat? Hmmp conscious ko dah. Hmmf pwd I apil ug encode ang akung ghuna2 karon. Haha

Me: Ahaha. . What mana imung gihuna huna diay? Nga nidaog ang spurs? Hahah

You: ..I want to thank you for all the good things u’ve done to me. Mao na ang naa skung mind. Oo daog najud daw.

Me: Why? What have I done?

You: ..Haha basaha dw ug balik akung g txt para makabalo ka.

Me: What are those good things? Nga samok2x kon ka? My pleasure.. Haha

You:.. Ahaha pag sure dana mao raj d diay na imong ma isip nga mayo na nabuhat sako? Ahaha..

Me: Di pa ako ag iisip nyan. . Haha.. How will I know? I don’t have the power to know that what you consider is good deed is as well good deed to me?

You: ..Haha dat’s y I’m telling it to u so dat u will know. . Hehe

Me: You haven’t tell me anything. . Except for the good.. Anyway.. K ra uie. .:)

You: .Ai mao pd dli na nman gd nmu mahinumduman tungod ky daghan na kau kag mga friends. . Haha . .:D

Me: Uie. . so what are you implying? Nga gikalimtan tika? Nga di ka importante? Haruh.. Nneychan

(you called me over the phone.. wa na nako nabutang… di nako marecord. haha)

You: Ai dli man sa ana.. hehe :P

Me: Asus dili daw . . haha

You: Lage dili man jd. Unsa diay?

Me: Wala pod ko kabalo.. Ahahah bleeh pildi ang spurs

You: . .k rana haha wah koy labot nla karon bhalag mapildi. Hehe

Me: Ahaha.. Way labot pagmapildi pero pag mudaog hastang lipaya. haha

…. Wala naka nagreply.. kay? Nakatulog diay! Ahha.. pagbilar pa og tabi. haha

Highlighter, why?

Figuratively speaking, it is that you marked my life in “nneychan’s way only”. Like a highlighter is used to emphasize good points in a book, you make me see clearer some capabilities of mine wherein I used not to give attention to before. It’s learning on my part and whenever I’m with you, I’m subject to it.

Practically speaking, it is because I think you need this. It will be of use to you since you have your new hobby now --- reading. Well, I suppose to give it to you the morning before you woke up… sad to note.. I was in deep slumber and poof! Una paka nakamata sa akua.. wa na nako nabutang. Hehe..

Heartily speaking, you are special and important to me that’s why I want to give you something which is “part-of-the-me”. Reading and writing has been one of my companions all these years and I think it would ring a bell to your heart if I would give you this. I hope you’ll like it. It might not be expensive but I assure you, it is “hypothalamously” given. I love you with the love of the Lord. 

A SONG IN MY MIND

         Oh diba. Talented? Hahah Praise be to God! Anyway.. dala sa akung tripping.. I decided to dedicate this song to you. It is entitled “I can see the Light”. Na play ni na song sa movie nga “Tangled”. Haha.. gapaila nga mahilig kog Barbie/barbie-like movies. Pasenxa sa voice. I may not sound as beautiful sa singers do but atleast heartily nako ni nga e post para sa imuha.. haha grabe nah.. bitaw.. okey ra.. dalawang dekada kanang nabubuhay. Okey lang mag effort din pag may time.. haha bitaw. Enjoy listening.

  

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOUNG LADY (11:59PM, Friday)

GOD BLESS YOU!

Love Lots,

UNNI ^_^