“A Positive No”

I stare blankly on a page

Trying to form words not out of rage

From my heart which spoke out again

Reminding me such feeling I can’t explain

So I tried to practice metacognition

To know what’s in you that keeps me in motion

Memories of me and you started to flash

Specifically to the moment which giggles both of us

I did ask you what neckties can do

You puzzled your face looking for a clue

Trying to fit everything, hardly you do

Luckily you didn’t know it until I showed it to you

Should I say favour was on my side?

Or it’s just you want to let go as well what you felt inside?

As romantic can lovers do to whom they loved

I did it without you seeing it bad

I smiled with that thought and realized

Time flew fast but we had seized it to last

A sweet memory we had built sometime

A throw back of our days so fine

I sighed and slouch on my chair

It took a while for me to see it clearer

Was I like a falling leaf on your ground?

Or was it just a friendly affection I didn’t understand?

You have summoned me in words

That it’s time to bring it to our next life’ episode

I tried to digest everything and absorb

But I’m afraid I couldn’t do what it should

I have to say “forgive me, I can’t grant

what you’ve been longing inside your heart”

It’s not because I don’t feel the way you do

It’s just I’m afraid we’ll just earned blue

There are things we must hold dear

And focus on as we continue our trail

It may be hard but I know we can

It’s the best we can do while were around

Tell me I’m coward enough to take such risk

But I can’t sacrifice what I think is best

I’d rather take such pain knowing I can still be with you

Than reminisce excruciating moments and losing someone like you.

I took a deep breath and wipe such tears

Rushing running down on such a lovely face

There are few open doors we have to consider

Trust me, it will be for the better.

Maybe it was by chance our roads met

But I believe it’s a choice we won’t regret

To settle in each others’ heart until our time runs out

And make the best of it entwined with an eros love

I infer not all “yes” in life brings happiness

Nor all “wait” could train one’s patience

Meanwhile “no” doesn’t always compliments negative

Because like now, it holds on to what we believed.